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Hi people! I've never told anything about this before to anyone.  So this is an exclusive cover about me, hehe.

I've been struggling about a year to compete against myself. I've been lost, still am...I took this path 2 years and a half ago with some dreams. I wished I got so many knowledge in environmental biology so i can lead myself and this nation to better environment. But my dream was shattered along my journey. I dont think i have what it takes to be that kind of person. I dont think i want to walk a lonely rocky road. I dont think i have the endurance to carry some research. i dont think i can even come up with research question. So i change my dream, i just want to make money and have a good marriage. I ran, so far, escaping real world. I roamed a lot in the internet. This thing is amazing, you know. It carried me so far that i can not go back. It's scary yet amusing.

So what about making money and marriage? blah....still don't have it. So do you think this is the bottom. The place where there's no way to sink? i don't know....I just need to finish the "wrong" path i took, so i can choose the "right" path of my journey. But you know what? I don't know how......I still love escaping through internet. So i can greet you....